I genuinely love working from home. It affords me the freedom to bugger off to the gym first thing, or stop mid afternoon to go to J’s school to have a look at what his class are upto. If I want to skip work for a day so I can go to Thorpe Park and film – I can. I have the flexibility to catch up at weekends and evenings, and all is good. Heck, I love that I can go make a tea, quickly run around the hoover, or stick the washing on in-between jobs.
I honestly don’t think I could ever go back to a normal job. I just don’t have the mindset any more. There is one pitfall of working from home, something that I struggle with.
It’s a really lonely existence.
When I had an office job, there were some utter dicks in the office, people who would annoy and frustrate me every single day. However the rest of them were generally decent humans. We’d talk about family, TV, music – just general office chit chat. I really miss that sort of interaction. Generally a working day just means sitting, not saying a word for hours on end, the silence broken by rubbish on TV or a podcast. Due to the electronic nature of what I do, most of my interactions are over email, I’ll go for hours without even speaking.
The situation has improved slightly by going to the gym. I’m not standing around chatting to folk – but it’s nice to have a camaraderie – all of us working towards a self improvement goal. It’s nice to be out and about.
You’re probably wondering why I can’t just pick up a laptop and go and loiter and work in public spaces. That’s fine when I’m writing a blog post. However when it comes to doing a CAD Drawing, or making a brochure in InDesign, your average laptop just can’t cope. It takes ages for the software to load, and when it has, it’s just slow and frustrating. So, I have to do the bulk of work at home on my dual monitored beast.
To make things worse, when you’re stuck indoors for long enough, going out and facing the world can be that much harder. I find my desire to socialise depletes quickly if I’ve spent several days inside. I’m happy, yet lonely wrapped in the safety blanket of the flat, waiting for Miss A to return like an excitable puppy.
I can be loud, boisterous and sociable – honestly, to the point where I’m a bit of a knob. However my sociable side is a beast that needs feeding with interaction (and occasionally alcohol), without the sustenance – it’s just a shrivelled husk. I’ve got two blogging events coming up this week that I’m excited about, but also terrified of. The world feels big and scary when you’ve hidden from it! Thinking about it, over the next few weeks and months there are a few things coming up, so hopefully my beast will be sufficiently ‘fed’ to get me out of this lull.
I’m also seriously looking at a bit more of a beefy laptop, so I can theoretically work anywhere. It won’t turn me into a social pariah and make me talk to people I don’t know. It will mean that I don’t have an excuse to stay inside. I can go out, do my thing and not surround myself with a stream of Judge Judy. I’m also enjoying doing my random Instagram stories – I like that people watch them, and even respond to them. It’s not always shouting out into the ether.
Working from home is great and I wouldn’t choose to work any other way. However, I think my methods and practices of working need some tweaking before I turn into a full on recluse.