I’m struggling at the moment. Not in a negative way – I feel happier, calmer and more content than I have in a very long time. Life feels good. What I am struggling with is this place. I’m not sure because I’m busy with work, and don’t really have the time to dedicate now – or – I’m just falling out of love with it all.
It just doesn’t feel how it used to.
There is so much ‘competition’ out there now. So many circles, groups and pods of people whoring the work of their coven, with moderate success. Bloggers are focused on being a celebrity, an opinion holder for Breakfast TV – it’s not about writing now.
It’s about over processed pictures of you and your kids. Slickly edited Video Blogs, filmed beautifully and edited instantly. I just can’t do it. I can’t physically keep up, and ethically, I can’t ‘sell’ my children – no matter how many toys, products, or brands are involved. It’s just all feeling a little sordid – I’m not sure I want to stay on the blogging merry-go-round as it is.
I enjoy a lot of what I do. I have found a new found love for cooking, and would love to push more food based items and recipes. Miss A is incredible at knocking up a beautiful meal from very little and my enthusiasm for that is massive. I’ve already written about ‘foodies’ who will instantly push frozen rubbish and sugar filled jars of sauces given enough money. Heck, even my Daddy Blogger peers are now willfully dropping their trousers and bending over for a few quid from Iceland.
We should be ambassadors for the ‘good stuff’ in food, showing people how simple it is to create tasty, healthy food from scratch. Let Peter Andre push a prawn ring – money isn’t everything. Authenticity and using your space for good is SO much better. And if an idiot like me, with limited cooking skills can learn, others can too. So maybe that’s where I should be taking my little corner of the internet?
That said – I would struggle with being a one trick pony. I’m a theme park nut, and I get so much pleasure from writing about them. This blog has opened so many doors into a world I adore and it’s brilliant being able to write about, and share stuff interested in. However, I’m aware it’s a bit niche – not everyone is interested in that.
I’m also a geek at heart, and love writing about technology and how incredibly quickly the world of gadgets and gizmos is evolving. Plus, now I’m wearing my old, battered ‘gaming hat’ a little more now – I’d love to write about that too. However, I wonder if I should just be ‘me’, and not a blogger. Get on with life without writing about it, take photos and videos as memories of good times rather than for sharing.
Would I have a better life if I didn’t blog?
I don’t know. I’d possibly sleep better than mentally composing blog posts that never get written. My phone might leave my hand if I wasn’t keeping my eye on the blogosphere through social media. That said, a lot of good opportunities, friends, and experiences have come to me, simply because I sit here, and occasionally write about them. It’s my outlet. Maybe I just need to change direction, give a firm ‘No’ to stuff that doesn’t ignite me. Meaning every spare drop of time can be invested into making whatever content I make the best it can be.
I guess if I was writing for fame and fortune, I’d be in 20 different Instagram Pods / ‘Blogger Support Groups’ and being a twee old twat on Twitter.
I suppose I like being in the corner – I don’t have to be something that I’m not. Or worry about my ‘brand’. I’ve just got to find time to do what I love a little better.